The Tarotcast – Week of August 29, 2016

What happens when two Venus cards (Nine of Disks = Venus in Virgo and Two of Cups = Venus in Cancer) meet the kind of Martian energy that can only be depicted by the card at centre, The Tower?

We get a very fine balancing act needed in a time of change. Moreover, that change can be abrupt, sweeping, and permanent. There’s no going back to the way it was. There is no return to Oz.

But, but, but ~


Nine of Disks, The Tower, Two of Cups from The Röhrig Tarot deck, created by Carl-W. Röhrig © US Games, Inc. Click on the image for a larger version.

Though this reading is about the falling away of something as represented by The Tower, it is also about redemption. Profound redemption. A re-encounter with something that is true, and inextricably a part of you.

Stay with me here; there’s a lot of detail in this reading, but I hope it’s going to be worth it.

The card on the left is the Nine of Disks. It is associated with the astrological placement of Venus in Virgo.

As of 22.06 Eastern Time tonight, August 29, Venus moves from Virgo into Libra. So the first card has a ‘time and date stamp’ to it, and situates it in the completing past. It is foundational to what is going on in the reading.

The Nine of Disks is called “Gain”, and it speaks to an accumulation of resources on a physical level — and the idea of “resources” can be broad. Here, it feels like the resource of partnerships and collaborations.

So what is foundational to your experience is something that involved a co-creative effort and a shared vision. It was imbued with the energy of “we’re in this together” — and it would have had a substantive impact on your tangible experience. It could have involved a work venture. It could have involved a creative enterprise. It could have meant an alliance around a particular interest, or a set of goals.

But as with all enterprises in this world that are worth their merit, there is a period of adjustment and readjustment. This is where The Tower comes in.

When it comes to the order of appearance in the tarot’s Major Arcana (the 22 Soul-based cards out of the 78-card tarot deck) The Tower, as card 16, comes after The Devil, as card 15.

Knowing this is important because it explains what The Tower is, and what The Tower is not.

When you surrender to The Tower rather than trying to resist it (and in the case of The Tower, resistance is futile), then you are working with the Martian energy of a card that:

  • Acknowledges what has come to light from the shadows of your unconscious in The Devil — an element of who you really are that you were repressing, and
  • Is wholly concerned with the business of tearing down everything that no longer works once that new knowledge about yourself and your situation has come to light.

An example: someone realising that, instead of following their own dreams, they have been following the dream their parents dreamed for them instead. (Or following “The American Dream,” for that matter.) Once that piece of information from the unconscious has been acknowledged and assimilated, then that person is awakened to a reality that they understand is not their own, and so it no longer sticks. They may choose to quit their now-meaningless job, but equally if not more likely there are events that conspire that they lose their job (because we seldom work proactively in matters of consciousness). The one they worked years for. The one that formed their identity. Except it wasn’t their identity: it was their parents’ desired identity for them.

Abrupt, sweeping, permanent. And in response to the coming to light of vital information about who you are. Who you really are. Who you are when you embrace what you didn’t want to look at but which became ready to reveal itself to you — because a part of you was ready to see it.

Martian energy is the energy that topples castles in the sky, leaving only the foundations of what is really working for you. Of what matters. This destruction can happen to your outer life, or it can happen to your inner life — your beliefs, your patterns, your sense of who you are.

It can feel like the earth is moving under your feet.

It can feel like you have been cut loose from sequestration. It can be sublime; it can be painful; it can be both. Yet behind that pain there is a knowledge that there was a reason for the release, as beyond-your-control as it was.

In this case, it feels like it has been shaking the foundations of an alliance, a cohort, a shared vision, a creative collective, some form of collaborative relationship.

That’s the bad news.

The good news is this — and I will repeat myself here:

First, it is already happening. The Tower is not in the near future card. It is bang-on-centre in your life. Whether loud or soft, you can hear or sense the rumblings of what is leaving, making way for the gems of what will be revealed at the core. The keystone.

Second, The Tower takes nothing that was not already going. In fact, what is going may have been on its way out for some time. More than that: in some situations (not all), it may never have been yours to begin with. (Think of those parental dreams dreamed up for you.)

What it reveals, when the dust clears, lies in the final card to the right: the Two of Cups.

The Two of Cups is traditionally about romantic love, but what is romantic love if not the falling in love with oneself through another? The Two of Cups is a mirror created when we meet someone who reflects back those things that we cannot own for ourselves — so creating the opportunity to do so.

If you look at the figures in the Two, something interesting reveals itself. Whose hair belongs to whom? And why three arms? It’s similar to love: what we believe we are feeling for someone else — that phenomenal groundswell of emotion and energy — is actually coming from us, not them.

When we know that when we are falling in love with another, we are falling in love with ourselves, then we can see something new both in the potential of relationship, but perhaps more importantly in our own potential.

How can you undersell yourself when you know how fucking beautiful you are?

The power, Dorothy, was in you all along. As it has also been with you in your gainful collaborations, your shared visions, your sense of wealth and gain in your world and how you place value on yourself as an intrinsic aspect of something that is both rich and supportive.

The Tower may feel like a shake-up of where you place your value(s). It may be asking you to look at yourself and others in a new light. It is, however, asking nothing of you that isn’t what a part of you is demanding of yourself.

No returning to Oz, my love.

Why would you need to, once you realise that it is you who had the courage, and the brains, and the heart all along?


Astrology Correspondences: Nine of Disks (Venus in Virgo), The Tower (Mars), Two of Cups (Venus in Cancer)

The Tarotcast – Week of August 29, 2016


  1. Jim on 30 August 2016 at 10:49 pm

    This week i have been searching for something solid to stand on. Everything is spongy and in motion beyond me – so I feel like an alien in a strange land. my mind is fuzzy and my perception of self is shifting shades of dark, blurry – once upon a time dreams. I know evil and I am. I remember beauty and once I could have been. Inner critic is loud and unrelenting. My worth is not in question – it is defined as worthlessness.

    I remember learning not to argue with this thought here and also i remember that I have a higher self perspective where I know myself as an adorable beautiful innocent muse who loves everything. I know i feel that way at times and that in that state I believe that perspective to be the real truth of things – but lately i seem to be baring with disbelief on some dark level. I cant seem to feel the beauty. I fear that all is lost. I feel the terrible loss of Eden.

    But i tell myself this feeling is not true. I practice “not taking myself so seriously” and I hang on because i know that this too shall pass. I feel better after reading your tarot reading and now expressing my recent distress.

    But the ultimate truth of me is – I just feel so helpless. I feel like I am just a mess. I do not trust the universe but somehow i also do. I am just at the point of hopeless frustration and vindictive acting out. I want out of this crazy dream. But whats the point of it all anyway. The hope of awakening to a sane stable reality appears to be the carrot on a stick and I the idiot who pulls the cart in hopeless effort. Polarities rule my consciousness. Two extremes that can not coexist and can not be killed, they wrestle in timeless futility. So i will be up and then i will be down for fucking eternity!~

    I am sorry for my honesty. I know we all hope for more – but maybe there isn’t more. And maybe its just honest to admit this possibility to our collective consciousness. My humility demands that I apologize and admit that I will continue to reach for the un-achievable – for whatever time it takes – because there is no other choice. I have been down so many dead end roads and I may follow many more but always the answer is just, “Farther”. But I am pissed off today!

  2. Integrated Tarot on 30 August 2016 at 11:48 pm

    Jim. Thank you for your honesty, your pissed-offness, and for bringing so clearly to the table the despair of hopelessness. Because there has to be a place around the table for hopelessness. God knows enough of us feel it and know it, and there are precious few places to express it without it being “blessed” away or diminished or being told that it’s going to be all right.

    None of us knows that it’s going to be all right, and there are times when things are not all right at all. They can be so not all right that there’s no thread we can hold on to that will guide us through that feels substantive enough to stand up to the force of annihilation, of absence, of shame, of defeat.

    As much as I want to dive in with a magic wand, I am choosing instead to stand by you and to read what you write and to witness it, and you.

    I witness you as someone who cannot know exactly what you are feeling and what you are dealing with, but also I am standing witness as someone who has felt the world slipping out from under her. Nothing to hold on to, it seems. Not only intellectually but viscerally. And the terror of looking at all the things that used to pull me out and which brought me the deepest joy in life – only to find they were no longer giving me what they used to. They had at their heart a gaping hole – much like the gaping hole that I felt at my heart, and much like the gaping hole I felt I was standing in front of. Bottomless, fathomless. World slipping sideways; nothing to hold on to.

    I hope that when I write this you don’t see it as a “You think you’ve got it bad? How about this?!” but as the only way I know how of standing next to you. I can’t offer you a way out. I can offer you a Kleenex (might be used, though!). I can also offer the presence of someone who stands at her own precipice. It’ll be different, for sure, but I have a feeling there are some shared qualities that help us to see that this, too, is part of the human condition, and it isn’t always rosy, and there may be not a hint of a presence of a rose anywhere around.

    The one thing I can offer, too, that may or may not be of help, and you may or may not be doing it already. Find a way of getting into your body, if you can and if it makes sense. Grounded movement where you use breath and sound. I find yoga is perfect for me – and I will resist going. Every. Single. Time. And find someone you can talk to – someone who will not offer you hope, but simply their presence and their reliability to do so. Therapy has been this for me.

    Keep writing here if it makes sense. Or don’t. Either way, come back any time. Pissed off is welcome, as is everything else besides.

    ~ Sarah

  3. Linda on 31 August 2016 at 2:45 am

    I stand by and with you too, Jim. And I, too, honor your pissed-offness…as I felt much the same way today. And that’s ok, I think. To just feel what must to come through us at times, learn something from it and then, let-it-go.

    Please know you are not alone.
    Guided meditations have been helpful to me – as well as, therapy.
    Best to you, Jim.

    Beautiful reading, Sarah. Thank you so much (as always).

    • Integrated Tarot on 31 August 2016 at 1:09 pm

      Thank you, Linda, for your presence on this page 🙂

  4. Jim on 31 August 2016 at 5:42 am

    Oh Sarah thanks for your kind response. I was venting and i felt like sharing it because I am just about to give up on the idea of ever finding the promised land – and that really pisses me off. But on the other hand i am just trying to cope with that possibility now. And i am thinking about how I started this journey with such high hopes 25 years ago – but even though i am feeling disconnected again and upset at how often i seem to be fighting the same battles i thought i had won many times before….even so…..I at least know what it is i truly want; i want to be in alignment with myself. I live for the moments when I see through source eyes and feel completely in agreement with myself. That is my only goal in life and I am passionate about it.

    Your readings almost always confirm where i am at and this one does too. I think the tower leaves me wondering what more is left to destroy of my old structure, my home, my family, my god what do you want of me. Just needing a little understanding and empathy from others who identify. I thank you for listening.

    BTW you have shared some of your doubts and frustrations in your readings over the years and it does really help me to identify with you, which creates a stronger connection. you know.

    I realize that past experience tells me that i will understand this drought at some point – but right now i dont – and i have been moving forward (maybe chasing my tail) in blind faith for an extended period now. I need a big unmistakable sign from the universe – and i need it soon – or maybe i just want it – and maybe it wont happen anytime soon – so maybe i will cry and scream or maybe i give up and go numb, i dont know, But i am out farther in the wilderness than i have ever been before and i hate to see my old patterns still looking so strong and healthy. I seem conflicted for life and that sucks. But dont believe that i am giving up because that would be wrong. I have nothing else to do..

  5. Integrated Tarot on 31 August 2016 at 1:13 pm

    I will post more later, but I read this poem by Adyashanti on Facebook this morning, and thought it apropos:

    If you prefer smoke over fire then get up now and leave.
    For I do not intend to perfume your mind’s clothing
    with more sooty knowledge.
    No, I have something else in mind.
    Today I hold a flame in my left hand and a sword in my right.
    There will be no damage control today.
    For God is in a mood to plunder your riches and fling you nakedly into such breathtaking poverty that all that will be left of you will be a tendency to shine.
    So don’t just sit around this flame choking on your mind.
    For this is no campfire song to mindlessly mantra yourself to sleep with.
    Jump now into the space between thoughts and exit this dream before I burn the damn place down.


    • Jim on 31 August 2016 at 8:19 pm

      Ahh Adyashanti… He speaks straight at what matters. I feel i am in the waking dreamer phase as the course in miracles teaches that we get into a happy dream before we fully awaken. I’d like to think thats where i am but sometimes I feel as trapped and confused as ever. But whatever….I got to accept myself as i am and just keep trying.
      Maybe this month and this energy will help me peel off a deeper layer of crusted over pretense. I feel better today. I hope you’all do to.

      • Integrated Tarot on 1 September 2016 at 12:53 pm

        Jim – Just a thought, because it is a lesson I’m currently learning, and it’s whoopin’ my ass!

        Maybe you don’t need to try to do anything? Maybe you don’t need to peel off any layers? Maybe that happens all by itself. Maybe, in spite of what you see and what a part of you is saying to you, you are actually doing perfectly? That there is nothing more you could do. That what you’re doing is absolutely your best enough. You’re acing it.

        What so many spiritual practices do is tell us that there is a promised land. ACIM is different, imo, because it really is about undoing every single illusion of separation, and that is painful and difficult.

        But that “promised land”? I think what so many of us strive towards in trying to reach that promised land again is the regaining of what has already been lost: the loss of love, of parents who let us down to greater or lesser extents. It is the falling from the Eden of oneness before we are separated from those who birth us. We spend inordinate amounts of time, money, sweat, “working hard on ourselves” so that we can achieve that promise once again.

        The Tower can be the shattering of that illusion – and it can also be the simultaneous lightning bolt of insight and liberation from dreams that have held us in some kind of la-la-land of denial.

        Letting that go, letting go of Eden, can be the damndest bugger of a step we take.

        A great book that has helped me immeasurably: What Matters Most by James Hollis. Might be worth a perusal. Might not 🙂 Who knows?

    • Linda on 31 August 2016 at 8:47 pm

      LOL 🙂 … LOVE this!